Acknowledgment of a loving universe is not always enough. Especially when that acknowledgment is a hidden denial of the necessity for human experience. I am a physically dependent person with an addictive family history. I am addicted to physical connection, if not emotional ones as well. However, at the moment, I am concerned with the scarcity of contact in my world. I have a feeling that I probably worry some friends (female) with the frequency and duration of physical contact that I seek from them. I hug hello. I hug goodbye. In between, I sneak little bits of skin; just enough to satiate me, and keep me alive. I hope that they don't always perceive this as a come on, as it only very rarely is. I am Superman, and the sun is touch. I feel that the bags under my eyes swell and droop and reveal my facial bones. The sadness is obvious in my brow, and I think my hands begin to shake. This must be apparent to others. I have come to believe that I would lay in a bed with just about any person, provided they were warm and assured.
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Rich Girl
I think that I'll start writing about Lauren as Rich Girl, because that's what people in my real life know her as.
I'm going to go to Green (vegan restaurant) with her this Friday. I don't think that it's a date, but I guess we'll see.
Ha, that's all I can say for now. I have to go to class now. Bye!
Erica
I went and saw Erica at American Eagle tonight. Just sort of to see her, I suppose. She works as a stock supervisor, and they happen to not carry ANY pair of pants in their store in my size (36X30). As it turns out, their 36X32 actually fits me. Anywho, she looked really good, and wasn't as tall as I had pictured. I may actually ask her out next week in class. We'll see. Did I ever make an entry about her? Oh, well, maybe I'll do that later.
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