Sometimes I have "duh" moments. Moments when super obvious things finally occur to me in real time and in real words. The latest is the concept of "worth."
A person's worth is directly related to the amount of time one is willing to spend with or on them (notice the use of the words 'worth' and 'spend' which are obviously linked). This means that a person's worth can be consistently quantified in units of time. In other words, what a man's worth is may be answered by "2 hours." A person is worth time. People who are especially valuable (for one reason or another), remain present in timespace far beyond their actual living time. Think of any now-dead historical figure. They will be worth the aggregate total amount of time ever spent with or on them. I think that I would like to add the personal caveat that time defined by negative energy (time spent bad mouthing a person, or perhaps planning and executing their assassination, just to give examples) is akin to negative time. So here is a concrete example in super basic time:
A ruler of a land.
Total amount of positive time spent on this person DURING their lifetime: 50,000 hours (remember, this would include time spent willingly WITH the person, as well as ON the person, which may include buying gifts or doing favors, or whatever).
Total amount of positive time spent on this person during all time AFTER their lifetime: 100,000 hours (students doing proud history projects in school, people debating this ruler's creative ruling style, et al)
Total amount of negative time spent on this person DURING lifetime: 65,000 hours (this person may have been a despot and a tyrant, which a large group of people constantly wishing them death and a few actually planning his assassination).
Totaly amount of negative time spent on this person AFTER lifetime: 750,00 hours (his legacy was well known by history).
This would mean that total positive time equaled 150,00 hours, while total negative time was worth 815,000 hours. This human being's net worth was -665,000 hours. This was not a worthy person. This person COST existence that much time.
The fun part about this line of thinking is that it begs the question: How much time are you willing to spend on YOURSELF? How long can you stand to be alone, without feeling the need to obtain company? Your answer will apparently be directly related to your concept of self-worth. Your self worth should always be a positive amount. If you spend your time hating on your looks and your abilities, you are depreciating your own value. You are devaluing your most abundant resource. Stop it. Start investing in your self, and your self worth will increase in value. USUALLY, this translates into other's worths of you, as well, which will help give positive time back to creation, in turn helping to make up for the massive empty hole left by the aforementioned cruel leader. Anyways, this is sort of rambling, but I do believe that I've made my point. Let's start reinvesting positive time into the universe in order to increase our worth and expand timespace. Or, at the very least, let's start being honest about how we rate the worthiness of our friends and family. How much is that person ACTUALLY worth to you in measurable units?
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Duh, lil' 'piph'nies
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Realty II
I was not able to get in to the 22nd st and Highland townhouse because the key only opened a little storage area. I did, however, check out a place on Central just north of Northern (on the Bridle Path!). It was your basic townhouse, but I really liked it. Decent kitchen, one and a half bathrooms, and a nice little enclosed back patio that opens up to parking and the neighborhood (not an alley or another complex). It is going for $55k, but may have some weird HOA issues, so my realtor is looking in to that.
Looked at the house. No. Just no.
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Saturday, December 5, 2009
Messages Through Fog
Sending her messages through the fog. It's nearly morning, and I just want to talk. I'm waiting for her to come back home. I'm thinking clearly now, and I just want to let her know. I'm not in love, but maybe I'm somewhere close by.
There's ether between us. A silent medium through which my heart floats. There's a million miles between us, but I'm standing right next to her. I'm not in live, but maybe I'm somewhere close by.
All our matter is dispersed. Giant things made small. We rejoin the universe, and speed away into oblivion.
Realty
Which do you prefer?
Option 1
Townhouse at 22nd St, a few blocks south of Camelback. Complex is kind of older, sort of shabby.
Beds/Baths: 2 / 2
SF: 1,504
Kitchen Features: Disposal; Microwave; Pantry
Master Bathroom: Full Bth Master Bdrm; Double Sinks
Additional Bedroom: Master Bdrm Upstairs
Laundry: Inside Laundry
Dining Area: Formal; Dining in LR/GR
Other Rooms: Great Room
$52,000 with a $361 listed HOA monthly fee. (For reference, the mortgage payment on this would be around $287.15, so with the HOA it would be $648.15)
Option 2
House at 20th St and a few blocks south of Indian School. Has a decent sized front and back yard with grass and trees. Not a super awesome looking neighborhood (really close to the 51), but this particular street is really nice.
Beds/Baths: 2 / 1
SF: 620 (I don't really buy this after walking around it. It looked more like 850 or so)
Kitchen Features: Range/Oven; Microwave; Pantry
Master Bathroom: None
Laundry: Wshr/Dry HookUp Only
Dining Area: Eat-in Kitchen
Other Rooms: Family Room
$70,000 but with no HOA. The mortgage for this is $386.54 per month, but then I would also be responsible for yard maintenance and the upkeep of the outside of the house.
So it's a townhouse for $52,000, which is easier to rent but harder to sell, versus a house for $70,000. The townhouse has two full baths, while the house only has 1.5. The townhouse would have a lower mortgage payment, but a high HOA fee. This may not be such a big deal, as the HOA would presumably be responsible then for lawn maintenance and the exterior of the place (this sometimes even includes the A/C). Also, most HOA fees cover water and sewer as well. So it might work out.
Choices?
